Suicide me not…..
Have you ever thought of ending you
r life?
Never!
You may not necessarily read this….
but………
It’s believed that every man/woman in the course of life encounters the idea of SUICIDE at least once. This sounds pretty debatable or contradictory..but I am not here to prove it.
Place your hand on your heart and ask yourself…
Haven’t you ever thought, at least for a fraction second to end your life?
Most of us do…right! (not all….so pls don’t sue me)
All of us have a way to bring it in mind…
I too have as I am no exception. Situations with out solutions make me think ending my life is the best way to deal. I am pretty ashamed to admit that the strongest reason I felt was to make someone special realize me. This way that someone might understand that I am pure at my heart and my care for them is more than my life. That was the longest period that stayed in my mind of around 2days to commit. After much distress and depression, I almost went blank while I was soaking in the rain. 1hour later, my eyes couldn’t accompany the rain anymore. Only thing that went in ma mind is to move 14steps ahead and jump from there. I could hear the collision of cold drops on my head and that little pain diffused and disappeared in no time. Heart lost coordination with mind. Heart has nothing to think anything anymore. Mind is at its work as no1 can stop the never sleeping mind. Its calculating the parabolic path I would be falling, the possible damage that could occur and showing me numerous falling styles so that my head first hits the iron bore tap and the rest of the body crushed to it.
Mind never shows you dead. Don’t agree? Did you ever see your own dead body in your dreams? No!..obviously!................yes!..then who is watching the dead body dude! Soon the body would be some1 else’s. This is because mind knows pretty well that if the body is dead..mind too is dead..little bit complex..but figure it yourself(wooooooo! im not saying to experience death dude! Just think abt it)…
I was about to take the support of my hand to lift jump my whole body but first I wanted to see how it would be like( a pretty strong symptom that my mind don’t wanna die). So I bent my self down holding the wall strongly so that it resembles my view when I was falling. Everything was fine..lets do it..i said to myself…The next second mind asked heart. “ will your death fulfils its purpose?”, Heart said. “donno..may that some1 realize my love after death”
Mind:”how will friends and class react”
Heart:”friends may feel sad.colg might stick my photo but soon every1 forgets it”
mind:“How will mom react to it?”
heart:”She will cry and cry and…and…....donno”
mind:”how will dad receive it?”
heart:”……mmm………mmmm………”
Heart went blank coz Dad loves me the most. I couldn’t even imagine how dad will react or respond. Mind is still active and started to feel my self as dad. I was there standing some where around in a room (some place where dad might be at that place). All of sudden I fell to my feet. Not dad, me!..my very body collapsed down. Mind and heart both went dumb..blank…for a second and suddenly started to cry as heavy as that rain while mind was consoling the heart….
I went back and slept peacefully. All those mind’s parabolic paths were to show heart the pain and suffering I might have and convince it.
This is what happens every time when one really wanna quit life.
Mind will always try to scare heart and people who are phobic to pain and blood change mind and go back shivering………..awesome
Some times strong determination, depth of problem or physical suffering overcome this stage and forwards to next stage.
At this time mind ask the heart similar questions as above. Partner,child,parent or anyone who loves you will surely help deep down.
Some believe in god so strongly unlike me..for them(GOD stands first above family and friends in love)..
“In Christianity, suicide is a sin. You are interfering with the god’s cycle and obstructing his rule. You are sent to hell right away.”
“Similar in the Islam too. It’s like disbelief in god. God will punish you.”
“In Hinduism, suicide is similar religious crime as murder.”
Life is a gift one has got. Hundreds of people survived in worst situations than us.
Just believe that although every problem is not solvable, they go down with time.
See what all mind shows when you are hurt and please try to hear the helpless voice of Mind pleading heart till the last chance
“SUICIDE ME NOT……..”
Mind never shows you dead. Don’t agree? Did you ever see your own dead body in your dreams?
ReplyDelete-- I shared my dream once right? ?? That Rocket Launcher swings around and hits me :) --
Somebody should tell us, right at the start of our lives, that we are dying. Then we might live life to the limit, every minute of every day. Do it! I say. Whatever you want to do, do it now! There are only so many 2maro's
ReplyDeletehey dude, after reading this what i came to know is u r hurt really bad for some stint of time.i dont know really what happened but its really inspiring, especially,for the people who are hurt mentally. i cant think as much logically as u think but in that situations i only think of my family first. my dad, who brought me up till this day and my mom who fed me thats it, i dont even think of myself, that much i feel deep about someone whom i love most(who ever it may be masculine feminine).And frnds not that gr8 frnds i have,hope may get in future.
ReplyDeleteHey, i saw my dead body in my dream even the cremation too. so, i think i am one of the mavericks in the world.
Atlast, a good article furnished by dharani sir u have gr8 future sir, writer gaaaaruuuuuuuu